Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

Well....here we are again.

I totally thought I found him.

And maybe I did.

But...it didn't work.  I am lonely and sad and missing him and just about ready to crawl under a rock and not come out for months. 

That lovely downward spiral of heartbreak.

I know this is not a "deep" blog.  It's mostly goofy things that I look for in a guy.  But today...I can't goof around about it.  Because this guy had so many things.  So many good things.

And we both messed it up.  I couldn't trust him.  And it turns out maybe I shouldn't have.  But apparently part of that is my own fault?  I don't know.  It was both of us.  I know that.

All I really know is that right now, it hurts to breathe.  There is a pain in my chest and in my gut that isn't going away.  He took a piece of me with him when he left.  When I asked him to go.

And the worst part is...I'm not ready to let go yet.  I think I'm holding my breath in hopes it can be fixed.

So...sorry for the lack of posts.  But I really thought I had no reason to keep making my list because he was hitting almost every single item on it.

I'm not ready to move on yet.  But maybe I'll be back soon.  In the meantime, I'll be soldiering on.